I got the bodysuit in for my bloodberry costume today. This makes me far more optimistic about getting the costume done. I need to buy some more spandex, though. Gotta make the white "socks" I'm not gonna go ghetto and use regular white socks, DO YOU HEAR ME?!?!?
So.. I found someone's journal today. Rather, I was directed to it while I was looking over someone's shoulder. HAHA. I'm not on this guy's journal, so as long as you all that know him don't tell him I know, I can talk about him behind his back (Just kidding!)
In any case... the whole situation reminds me too much of Ronfar (weird in it's own way, but not Ronfy-weird) and Fletcher. Maybe that means he'll have a really odd sex life in about 3 years! In any case.. it's just really hard to get along with men. You just can't seem to have decent male/female freindships w/o a certain between-the-legs out-board motor getting in the way, somehow.. and I'm not just talking about sexual attraction between the two individuals in question. I mean.. I've tried to be freinds with guys in the past.. and it almost seems like when they either
a) come to the realization that I'm unavailable
b) find someone they want a "relationship" with
you just can't be freinds anymore. They may say things like "oh.. we're still freinds." or "nothing's going to change b/c of her" it's all just a lie. They find someone else, and defect to the other side. Freindship lost. Thank you, drive through, have a nice day. I'm so tired of it.. b/c as my few female freinds know.. I just don't seem to get along with women in general that much.(As Makoto, Ringo, and Niko Neko will attest to)
I'd much rather be freinds with men. They're usually funnier& more entertaining, and easier to hang out with. >..< Until a or b happens.
That means, I can only make freinds with men who are in a serious monagamous relationship where no jealousy is present between the two lovebirds. Pain in the ass. IT's hard to do! I only really have two good freinds that way, and I'm engaged to one of them. It's not like I can just go around and have a serious relationship with every guy I just want to be freinds with. Sorry.. can't happen. Grow up, people! >..<
And when they realize that... POOF. No more freind.
My empty house this past Sat is proof of that. ('Cept goat and I got pretty smashed XD It was fun)
It just makes me kind of sad... and with this last one, I feel like I'm at fault. I mean.. I usually don't get crushes on my male freinds.. but for some reason, I was rather infatuated with the one in question. Some of you probably remember that locked entry a while back, right? >..< Well, I got over it... and supposedly, nothing in the freindship would change. (Despite the fact that we never really did anything to begin with. I just let him know about the crush so it would stop driving me nuts) But... hey, look at that! POOF
Some things just piss me off.
I wrote him a letter the other day, you know... A rather angry "Goodbye you liar.. it was nice having a freind like you.. for a few months. Baka" Letter.. and he just played it normally. "Ooops! I didn't forget about you, really!" (He stopped talking to me for about a month+) and "No really.. nothing's changed"
Bullshit >..< GRRRR!
And it doesn't help that I've cultivated this intense hatred for his kindred up in Dallas, either.