I've been thinking about it for a while. I don't have any desire to stop sewing, so I'm not quitting everything. I'm just not interested in cosplay as much as I used to be. I haven't felt like a part of my cosplay "group" in years. It feels more like a dream than anything else. Once upon a time, there was a group of people that dressed like tards together a few times a year. Then everyone went home except for me. At least, that's how it feels. It would be a lie to tell everyone that I'm a member of PWC anymore. To everyone else, sometimes I really feel like I'm just "that other chick on the website"
No one associates me with the the group, and while I've held out and done a few things on my own since everyone went back up to colorado, it hasn't been the same. Even Nick stopped talking to us and moved up there. (Hey.. while I'm lazy about calling people, we would actually try and contact him quite often, and he would never return calls. I won't lie about the fact that I am REALLY bad in keeping touch with people)
We used to meet up once a year at Ushicon to have fun, and it was great. But there is no more Ushicon. We tried going up for NDK the year before last, but when everyone is working staff, you don't really get to spend as much time with people as you like.
Then there's expo. God. I really don't think I could handle expo. Beleive it or not, crowds put me in a bad mood. I don't do well with them, and I think at expo I would just freak out. I guess the hobby isn't really for me, huh? :P
A part of me wonders if I would be a better freind if I went to expo once a year.
But everyone just does Tsubasa and gundam costumes now, and that's really not my thing... I tried to find a Tsubasa/Holic character I liked with enough outfits to make.. but unless I became an anorexic boy and started making Fai costumes, I don't see it happening.
Fact is.. while I LOVE dressing up and hanging out with freinds like Celine, or making my brother do it and hang out with me, it's not the same. I've had a lot of good times with Celine and my brother, but over the years, my interest in the hobby has waned.
I still love dressing up, but the more weight I gain, the harder it is for me to find outfits I'm comfortable designing/recreating for myself. I'm not even really sure this would change if I did lose weight. I may just be growing out of that phase of the hobby.
What has been rattling around in my head though has been an interest into finding a way to take my remnants and make some really cool costumes out of them that arn't based on any anime series. Just original designs I guess. But I don't have anything in particular in mind. While the idea of dressing up for somthign like a renfest petrifies me, I would like to make some pretty things that I feel cute/sexy in.
I don't really feel that anime costumes fit the bill. I'm not really watching many new series anymore either, and that might really be a part of it.. But I've kind of fallen out of the whole anime scene. I don't mind. I still like it, but I'm not nearly as gung ho about it as I was before. I guess same with cosplay. I'm still gaming a lot, and I think I woulnd't mind making more game costumes eventually.. but I don't know. The idea of cross dressing as Tellah made me giggle for a long while, but it was really mostly an excuse to get rid of all my pink norn leftovers. :X I bought too much... I guess. I don't know. It was 60 width designer/decorating fabric, so while I hit close to the end of my bolt, I have huuuuge tracks of remnants.
Oh yeah D: I keep forgetting to mail off this box of dollscraps I have :X It's been sitting taped up and ready to go for like.. weeks. :X
But yeah. I don't really feel part of any aspect of the costuming community anymore. I think I'm pretty much done with it. I still like making things with my hands, though...
So I don't know. I'm waiting for the next thing that grabs my fancy. The local music shop has a used oboe in, and I've been seriously thinking about picking it up..
They had it listed pretty high, but they were willing to mark it down if I flat out purchased it all at once. Plus, they marked it down based on intarweb prices. (They also will sell it to me for what seems like a reasonable price for a composite body, but they have it listed in the computer as grenadilla. If it's really a wood body, it's in great shape, and the price is a steal)