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10 November 2006 @ 04:00 pm
Some thoughts on cosplay  
I think I'm going to flat out give up cosplay.

I've been thinking about it for a while. I don't have any desire to stop sewing, so I'm not quitting everything. I'm just not interested in cosplay as much as I used to be. I haven't felt like a part of my cosplay "group" in years. It feels more like a dream than anything else. Once upon a time, there was a group of people that dressed like tards together a few times a year. Then everyone went home except for me. At least, that's how it feels. It would be a lie to tell everyone that I'm a member of PWC anymore. To everyone else, sometimes I really feel like I'm just "that other chick on the website"
No one associates me with the the group, and while I've held out and done a few things on my own since everyone went back up to colorado, it hasn't been the same. Even Nick stopped talking to us and moved up there. (Hey.. while I'm lazy about calling people, we would actually try and contact him quite often, and he would never return calls. I won't lie about the fact that I am REALLY bad in keeping touch with people)
We used to meet up once a year at Ushicon to have fun, and it was great. But there is no more Ushicon. We tried going up for NDK the year before last, but when everyone is working staff, you don't really get to spend as much time with people as you like.
Then there's expo. God. I really don't think I could handle expo. Beleive it or not, crowds put me in a bad mood. I don't do well with them, and I think at expo I would just freak out. I guess the hobby isn't really for me, huh? :P
A part of me wonders if I would be a better freind if I went to expo once a year.
But everyone just does Tsubasa and gundam costumes now, and that's really not my thing... I tried to find a Tsubasa/Holic character I liked with enough outfits to make.. but unless I became an anorexic boy and started making Fai costumes, I don't see it happening.

Fact is.. while I LOVE dressing up and hanging out with freinds like Celine, or making my brother do it and hang out with me, it's not the same. I've had a lot of good times with Celine and my brother, but over the years, my interest in the hobby has waned.

I still love dressing up, but the more weight I gain, the harder it is for me to find outfits I'm comfortable designing/recreating for myself. I'm not even really sure this would change if I did lose weight. I may just be growing out of that phase of the hobby.

What has been rattling around in my head though has been an interest into finding a way to take my remnants and make some really cool costumes out of them that arn't based on any anime series. Just original designs I guess. But I don't have anything in particular in mind. While the idea of dressing up for somthign like a renfest petrifies me, I would like to make some pretty things that I feel cute/sexy in.

I don't really feel that anime costumes fit the bill. I'm not really watching many new series anymore either, and that might really be a part of it.. But I've kind of fallen out of the whole anime scene. I don't mind. I still like it, but I'm not nearly as gung ho about it as I was before. I guess same with cosplay. I'm still gaming a lot, and I think I woulnd't mind making more game costumes eventually.. but I don't know. The idea of cross dressing as Tellah made me giggle for a long while, but it was really mostly an excuse to get rid of all my pink norn leftovers. :X I bought too much... I guess. I don't know. It was 60 width designer/decorating fabric, so while I hit close to the end of my bolt, I have huuuuge tracks of remnants.

Oh yeah D: I keep forgetting to mail off this box of dollscraps I have :X It's been sitting taped up and ready to go for like.. weeks. :X

But yeah. I don't really feel part of any aspect of the costuming community anymore. I think I'm pretty much done with it. I still like making things with my hands, though...
So I don't know. I'm waiting for the next thing that grabs my fancy. The local music shop has a used oboe in, and I've been seriously thinking about picking it up..
They had it listed pretty high, but they were willing to mark it down if I flat out purchased it all at once. Plus, they marked it down based on intarweb prices. (They also will sell it to me for what seems like a reasonable price for a composite body, but they have it listed in the computer as grenadilla. If it's really a wood body, it's in great shape, and the price is a steal)
Current Mood: blahblah
elvenseeker on November 10th, 2006 10:31 pm (UTC)
I have to say I understand a LOT of what you are saying, just can't bring myself to actually say "I give up" yet. And while I watch a lot of anime (when I have time), doing it on your own just isn't as much fun! It's rather hard to stay into something like that when you feel isolated. :-(

Since my costumes didn't sell on Ebay, I've been debating what I could hack them up and turn them into. (Wrap skirt out of Lacus, perhaps??)

We should collaborate, even if on non-cosplay. ^_~ From what I've seen, you're rather good at sewing, so it seems like a shame to not do anything any more!
HIDE your facekyonomiko on November 10th, 2006 10:44 pm (UTC)
Well, I made a duvet cover out of a bunch of my remnants... And I know a lot of people that took all their school band shirts and turned them into a quilt. Stuff like that I think it pretty cool. There are so many quilt covers, etc you can make, though... XP

I don't think I could ever sell any of my costumes. It's not nessesarily sentimentality or anything.. but I've never had a serger, so a lot of them have raw seams on the inside.. and I cut a lot of corners :X
elvenseeker on November 10th, 2006 11:09 pm (UTC)
I kinda let myself get talked into trying, because I don't fit into them and they're just sitting there taking up space. >.> And who says there's anything wrong with cutting corners? *chuckle*

oooh. I figure I've been "bold" by making curtains instead of just clothes. (It really is different!) But a duvet cover? That sounds awesome. :-)
HIDE your facekyonomiko on November 11th, 2006 06:15 am (UTC)
I should take pictures. In my true style, it's not finished XP there are no loopy things to attach it to on the inside and keep it from sliding around, and I didn't put any sort of closure on the side. I WAS going to make it the type that just folded close on one end, but I think I forgot what I was doing when I was doing it, so I need to just put some velcro down there

But yeah.. I needed to sew a cover for the awesome down comforter that I got as a wedding present from makoto& ringo! :D
Makoto: gnaw gnaw gnawkinomakoto on November 11th, 2006 04:39 am (UTC)
Well, first off, we miss you tons whether or not we're "cosplay bff". We're more than that. I blame A-kon for sucking walrus balls, and then Ushicon for ditching us. XP

Honestly, this NDK was awful for me and Lauren. We were pretty damned miserable. We worked our asses off with no thanks for it, barely had time to eat (on Sunday, we subsisted on a granola bar and some tea until after 6pm) and my only "free time" the entire weekend was frenzied racing through the dealers room buying Rozen Maiden figures. -_- It's one of those things that makes you go "Huh. Is this really worth it." .... so yeah. Being one of the ditchers as opposed to the ditched, I can't really say I know how you feel, but I have a pretty good idea, and it's frustrating and it sucks. ;_;

You are busting over with creative talent, and I hate you for it. XP I've always secretly wished I was a better artist, a better singer, a better writer, but all I really do is copy other people's designs and smudge out blemishes using Photoshop. If you wanna start designing stuff, I know you'd kick ass at it. When I first got my doll, I never wanted to sew for me again and instead devote all my time to making him retarded little outfits. I definitely enjoy sewing for him, and if you want to make the investment, sewing for a bigger doll is a helluva lot easier. Take your time, find what you're interested in doing. Your hobby should be fun and precious to you. ^_^
HIDE your facekyonomiko on November 11th, 2006 05:58 am (UTC)
<3 I know it would help if I didn't suck so much at keeping in touch with everyone, really. I don't blame you guys for working NDK. I've just decided that next time we visit CO, it's when you arn't working a con XD I do love hearing from you guys, and I hope you know it's totally not a "ZOMGZ THEY HATE ME" kind of thing, but the distance really sucks -..-
I've thought long and hard on the doll thing. I mean.. I know I'd have fun with it, but I'm pretty sure I'd have fun with it for like.. 2 weeks tops. I obsessed over it for a while, and even decided what one I would get. (www.eluts.com- Delfs(top left link), 4th row, second from the left. The special shiwoo with the sleeping vampire head).. though it would probably be cheaper if I bought the head and body seperately, but I don't know.. I might want that second head in case I don't always want the eyes that closed...
But yeah.. I know I'd love, him, but I don't know if it would be 700 bucks worth of love D: (Though you know he does come with two heads..)

Argh D:
Ringoapplcheeks on November 11th, 2006 06:12 pm (UTC)
*hugs and kisses*

We miss you! We only want the best for you and want you to be happy! If you think that saying goodbye to that part of your life will help then you should do what you need to do. ^_^
Finding a new creative outlet might do the trick.There might be local places where you could learn pottery or even things like glass blowing. =D I know when I get tired of sewing I do someting like scrap booking or catch on Jpop stuff. But that's me. XD
Of course there is always BJDs. =3 I have to say I love my babies they are worth the money, though I haven't sewn as much for them as I would have liked. It's always a good feeling to know that I could make a complete outfit in a couple of hours. *nod nod* Sewing in a fraction of the time and materials is nice. =D