February 22nd, 2013


Slowly getting back to some semblance of normal

I got my workout in today. I didn't cry. I may have, in the shower. But, since it was the shower, it didn't count. I am feeling a little better, but I still look at all his usual places and wish I was seeing him there. Nugget doesn't cuddle as well as Senpu did. When he was feeling well, he used to come right up next to me in bed and rest his paws and head on my arm. We'd curl up together and I'd go to sleep to the sound of his purr.

Nugget.. attacks me through the sheets :X It's kind of cute, but not the same at all.

I had Matt home most of the day today, and Ray was home all day, so I wasn't alone. I think that's one of the reasons why today went so much better than yesterday. I thought of him less. I still find myself remembering the moments of his death, over and over again. I wish I wouldn't.

I got some cleaning done yesterday. The computer room is looking a lot more fur-free now. I will try to tackle one room at a time, or parts of a room until I have most of it gone. The fleecy inside of the hoodie I am wearing is peppered with orange fur, and it makes me sad. I need to remember to wash this too. I suppose I can go back down to one litterbox, too. I got bath rugs back down, aand for the first time ever, I'm not worried about an animal peeing on them. Things are so strange without him. Some moments, I feel perfectly fine. Others are tough.

It's getting better, though. Today was better than yesterday. I took a pic of Nugget on my camera phone, and she looks absolutely demonic. Text me if you want a copy. Her legs are wide open in a very unladylike pose, so it's almost like cat porn. Demonic cat porn.
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