September 22nd, 2002



I've been playing Kingdom hearts lately. It's really neat.. but the Halloween Town area is too small. I just want to spend the entire game there. Not other levels... just there... Playing with Jack& Sora in his cute halloween outfit >..< Now I've finished the level and must move on to Atlantica.. :( Oh well.. he looks cute naked& with a shark-tail, too...

Another gathering is approaching. This weekend, there's going to be a huge B-day party. I wasn't sure I'd be able to make it at first, but once again, Goatboy came to my rescue.
And even though Ranma isn't going to be there, I keep thinking back to last year's halloween party. Lots of memories there...
And I know this is going to be different, but I'm still rather nervous and on-edge about the whole thing.
I keep teetering back and forth from really not wanting to be there, to really wanting to hang out with two certain people again. Everyone else... well, to be honest, I couldn't give a flying flip about. (Absolutely no offense to Goatboy, sice we actually do get to hang out on occassion)
I have birthday presents for both of them.. and I have some things I wanted to make for them also.. but I don't know if I'm going to have time to sew them. We'll see how school& work goes.
Still.. I feel a sort of dread& anticipation about the whole thing. It really makes me wonder. I definitely do want to go.. but the whole situation makes me nervous.. plus, I have to talk to a few people I hung out with at Animefest... That'd be cool, but I really don't think they're that keen on me anymore, so I'll probably just end up avoiding them. Don't know who's going to be there, though.. so that handful of people may or may not even be there.
Sometimes, I violently wish I could tear myself away from that whole group.. but then I realize that I'm not even really a part of it.. so I don't know why I stress so much.

Oh well.. back to my game.. and back to avoiding homework.
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