January 8th, 2001


detatchment and the fearless leader

I had this really odd dream about Malice mizer the other night. I related it to Max in full detail, and I thought you might be interested as well, so I'm just going to copy/paste... that is, if it's ok with you.
I had another last night, where my mom found 4 people from japan down by our house, and she decided to put them up since I'm so interested in Japanese stuff. They turned out to be Malice Mizer... Mana, Kozi, Yu~ki, and, oddly enough, Gackt. They erected a huge Kami memorial fountain by our house in thanks for putting them up at our house. The fountain was beautiful, with a life-size statue of Kami surrounded by 2 angels with huge wings. They were mounted on the top of the fountain, and it was of tarnished bronze& copper. There were black wires swirling around it and water flowing from their feet. It was gorgeous.... And I remember though I was living with them for a few weeks, I really wanted them to autograph some pictures.. It was amusing, because Yu~ki and Kozi and Gackt thought it would be funny to forge other band member's autographs.. so by the end of my hunt, I had pictures of them hugging me, etc.. and one concert photo with each band member's name "autographed" somthing like 3 times each, and they were all forged by the other band members. It was odd... I woke up very sad, though, because the last thing I drempt about was the fountain.
School has started, but I still feel as if in limbo. I've wanted to go out to eat the past few days, but people have been ruining it. I can't really say they've been ruining it.. rather, other things come up, and I push my plans aside. I suppose I have no right to complain, because I'm making room for my freinds of my own accord, and the place I wanted to go to is really dumb anyways, but it's strange how the little things mean so much...
  • Current Music
    Lots of odd random anime music

blue mystical liquid rules the stars and tells me....

I felt like typing more... I couldn't help it. I feel like I'm about to burst and dissappear at the same time. I told everyone to go home so I could sleep, and then I wasn't sleepy.. I'm going to pop, or at least squirt my post up here. Is this the perfect little life I've always wanted? The closer and happier I get, the farther and more unhappy I seem to be. Fletcher said he'd talk to me. I don't know if he's the person I wanted to talk to, but I'll have to wait and see. Maybe I really want to talk to you? I want to talk to the one from my dream that knows me so well.... I wish he'd come back. writing and drawing and trying to sing and living isn't enough anymore. I'm hungry and selfish and I want MORE. Let me swallow life now and digest it as I go along. This isn't enough for me, and that "school" doesn't feed me at all. Isn't it funny that idols in Japan openly admit that it doesn't take singing talent to be an idol in Japan? They say that's why it's tought in the US...that you have to have talent... I dissagree. It's true that a lot of those idols don't have talent...but the rock groups do... and there is no talent in the us...heh
I heard Smashing Pumpkins was breaking up.. that kind of sucks...I didn't like the last thing they did that much anyway.... Billy corgan is nosferatu, I think. He's bald enough now.
I suppose I should stop rambling.. you're probably getting tired of it, if you're still reading. If I write too much, you'll get bored. Maybe you were already, and now you're dead... bored to the point that your heart stopped beating because of my writing. That would be a deadly talent, wouldn't it? I suppose I'd never get caught, though, becasue as soon as the incriminating evidence was displayed, all my accusers would fall dead. Sort of like the world's funniest joke from Monty Python. If I knew german, I'd be dead for sure. Ask them. They know.
I'd kind of like to be an idol in Japan.. then I could afford to buy stuff in Japan and live in Tokyo and pester my favorite rock stars. I wonder if Michael Jackson would buy the hide museum? He has just about everything else. He'd steal up hide's clothes and sell temporary rights to them like he did with the beatles songs... or somthing. You'd see hide's empty clothes selling coke and microsoft and tide and all sorts of things, and his clothes would be the biggest celebrity in the US, and no one would know the real story.......
  • Current Music
    the revolutionary girl utena opening theme on repeat....