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26 June 2008 @ 04:20 pm
I'm in a funk :(  
I still haven't missed any gym days, but I think about going, and I'm practically making faces to myself. I have two days and one more week to kick ass on the machines before another measurement day, and I'm feeling pretty anxious about it. I also have a TON of housework to catch up on, but I can't seem to drag myself into one room for long enough to do it.
I started my Arche pants the weekend Celine was visiting, but I've totally been way too busy to finish them. I should at least put the elastic in the waistband or somthing, but ugghhh. lazy!

I've just been kind of sitting around doing jigsaw puzzles and moping. I don't really have a reason I guess. I wish I felt super motivated so I could get those pants finished, get the kitchen clean, do all my housework, etc. But blaaahhh. I haven't even been really excited about food either. When it comes to cooking, I've just been staring at the fridge and feeling blah. I haven't been able to come up with good things to cook lately from the stuff I normally have around the house, and nothing stounds tasty.

I'd definitely call this a funk.

I need to just force myself to get some of this stuff done, I guess. I get the most sewing done when I'm in the mood to do it and enjoying my projects, so I'm afraid if I just force myself through the sewing, nothing will turn out and I'll hate the costume. I guess I could start with the housework and work up from there :P Maybe I'll be more excited about it after my wigs come in and I get the wig done.

I'm also still waiting on my Dethklok tickets. I received an email last week saying they'd been printed, so I guess I should get them any day now. I don't know. I was thinking about sewing some excitingly retarded gothy clothes for the concert, but I don't think I'll get it done. I bought this amazing costume fabric when we were picking up stuff for our other costumes. It's black mesh (not fishnet) with like.. gold latex or somthing over it, and it looks like it has a black wash over it, with holes ripped in it everywhere. (The mesh is constant, the potholes are in the latexy stuff) It's really amazing. Everyone I've showed it to so far has given me funny looks, but I think they'll make amazing leggings. I dunno :X I could totally make a full pleated skirt out of that snakeskin I have sitting around, too. I loved the way that panel turned out that I tossed on that mess of a skirt I made for Expo. It's all very exciting. I could totally cop out and wear the shirt I painted last year and the tux tails, and it would be a wonderful mess. Or I could figure somthing else out for a shirt and make arm warmers out of the gold stuff to match the leggings. I don't know. The thought of it all is very exciting, but I can't seem to motivate myself to get behind the machine. I should be going to the gym right now too. Ugghhh.. I'd better go get that out of the way.

If I have any hint of what might be causing my funk, I would have to guess that it's because it's Matt's vacation. I love it when he has the extra time off, but we never seem to do anything when he IS off. We've been out to the movies once so far, and he's only got another week and a half left. We were planning on going to Vegas with some freinds. We were planning on it being either last week or this week, but he couldn't make it work and that was all Matt really needed to be done with it. I was doing all the planning and I was going to take care of hotel and airline and all that crap. I don't like doing all the planning :(
It didn't really work out, but we want to try and make it happen later in the year when our WoW freind can go, but I really wish I had somthing exciting going on. I really just have to make it through this week, and I'll have fun stuff to do over the 4th of July weekend with Celine. I'm looking forward to that, and I hope everything works out as planned. We tried to get Matt to go out to that with us, but he REALLY really really doesn't want to, and I don't know why not. It's not a big deal, but it feels like the only time I get to do exciting stuff is without him, and I don't like it feeling that way. He's agreed to come to AFest, but I feel like I'm forcing him, which isn't how I want things to be either. Oh well. :/
 
 
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